HaPPy MoM

Confession

2010-01-19T15:35:00.000-08:00

It's weird for a teenager to confess that easy with a guilt,but fortunately i heard that confession..

She wasn't praying in a regular attitude..skipping many times of prayers claiming she forgot or whatever excuses..her dad made long time ago a neat schedule for both of them to be checked five times daily..just to make them aware about their progress..that was really long time ago and they were never (punished) when they delay some prayers..we were only commenting and they always follow again..

Now,she just told me that she is bad..she feels she's not kind..and God doesn't accept her prayers

Then she confessed that she checked earlier that schedule to avoid punishment,then she completed in a sad way that (the one who care about anyone more than God) is a bad one deeply inside and God won't ever support him..

what to say?

I gathered myself to assure to her that she was young then and she wasn't committed to pray.. we did that for her just to get used to pray regularly.. and i made a speech about it's never too late to get back to the right way whenever we feel guilty..and the main thing i stressed on was : God love us all and she is really good and kind deep inside..and she mustn't ever give up hope in God mercy and forgiveness all time

was that enough? i don't know

Final Exam..

2010-01-12T15:15:00.000-08:00

We are in our last days in the first term waiting for its final exam..

the funny days had gone and the balance ones are so hard for both of them specially they were not attending regularly their school classes as the swine flu attacks hard. So we were totally depending on ourselves to study everything with only signs from teachers by phone :(

I guess I must admit that i'm afraid even more than they feel.

Her Facebook Account..

2009-12-16T13:08:00.000-08:00

The story begins from her facebook accout..it was deserted for two years before she started to give it her complete concern again
She needed my help to refresh her memory on how to use it then in few days i found many of her friends are added to our existing young relatives
Then she got involved in some game in which she interact with strangers other than her listed friends..
I kept watching and spying in silent..telling my advices..
I really felt happy when she told me that she's the only one adding her mother to her account and she likes that..
The shock came just few days ago when she joined her school group and i found many boys talking and disscussing many notes..the one who got my attention was titled : agmad 10 mozaz in our school !!
For whom who cant get the meaning of that title, it points to the most "stylish & pretty" girls in the damn school !!
i think that what 'thirteen years old boys mean' !!
I opened it to find three lists by members..i searched to find her name not listed..
I got relaxed "actually i can't tell what i felt exactly" but she came and had a look to the page and said : those boys are only teasing each other by putting the names of some others' sisters in such lists !!!!
I asked 'with a small laugh' : where is your name then?
She said : it'll be added in the list titled : the most wild girls in our school..be relaxed..you are updated of all my steps..
....
It's my first time to feel confused..worried..and not controlling
My first time to see her a grown little girl..and to wonder : what to say in case a friend tells her that she is pretty !!!

Studying English..

2009-12-11T16:58:00.000-08:00

She started by telling me that if we were classmates she would love me the most :)
i didn't buy that and we started studying anyway :D
Actually we're passing a nice time stucking together studying and living as bookworms..although that might -in ordinary cases-lead to big troubles but thanks God that's not our case at all
She is brilliant enough :) adding to that she has a high sense of humor and joking just in time..
Today we were reading a part of the novel 'call of the wild' that talk about a dog that was stolen from his calm environment and transferred to work hard in pulling sleds..she had a bad experience with dogs earlier when they attacked her with no harm..but that sad memory didn't make her feel any sympathy with 'Buck', the stolen dog..so,we exchanged talks about the difference between street dogs and the loyal dog pets till she finally cried while reading about an innocent stolen female dog who was killed by the other wild ones..i did it :)
It wasn't my aim to cause her cry of course but i wanted to make her far away of her bad memories and to overcome this bad accident.
The only bad thing in that story is the great sum of vocabulary we face..anyway i'm happy of her progress and level inspite of all that.

They make memories..

2009-09-05T10:32:00.000-07:00

I discovered this fact lately when we went through some talk about our old flat.
One is ususlly concerned about how others affect him,that was what in my mind,thinking only how they were acting,playing and growing..thinking how i was controling them and affecting them
I was shocked when they started to tell their impressions about me and their father,and some little bad actions they succeeded to hide :)
It was a little bit strange to recall things from their view..
That made me 'see' and hope to make much more nice memories for them,still i have time,i guess.

Again..

2009-07-30T02:27:00.000-07:00

I'm back here again

Earlier.. I had some bad feelings towards my writings here and there and everywhere so i closed all my windows and kept one blog ..

I dunno if i'm doing good here or not but i 've someone who said : come back and write again about your kids..

So.. i will :))

A Question!

2008-12-26T11:40:00.000-08:00

How can i know his intelligence rate ?
A stressing question as i got confused lately when i compared his reactions,knowledge,interests and capabilities with his older sister!
She was much better in all that,and that stress me a lot,keeps me thinking in the causes to get to solutions and i became to that:

1. My behaviour towards him,dealing with him as the younger one,laughing at his mistakes,having a permenant thought : 'he ll not get it cause he's still young' and finally spoiling him sometimes.
"i got attention to that and im working always to explain and answer and to deal with him as a big boy"
2. He is just like that,less than her.
"no,he's not,his intelligence in many situations tells not,he's eager to know,asking millions of questions,that tells it's a lake of what he get"
3.The famous quote : 'girls when young are usually smarter than boys'
"it relieves me really but i won't count on it".

I guess i have a lot of work to do.

Chickenpox

2008-05-30T13:02:00.000-07:00

She is sick :(
She has just finished her final exams but at her last day she had some fever,
it's ok, i said
we will take some pills and everything will be ok, we will go through our plans for this summer
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At midnight, some spots starts to appear filled with water :(
The next morning we went to her doctor who said: it's...

Chickenpox

it's a viral illness and can infect kids and elders depending on their immunlty
it lasts for 3 weeks,pulses of spots that will be dried soon
restrictions:
No water allowed to touch her body
High care should be taken for the spots to be dried normally
No choclates
Her brother should be isolated away from her

That last restriction is another story :(
he was used to stay at his grandpa's home but this time he went by force, cried much to not to leave her

It's our 2nd day,she is nearly red :(
crying when she looks to the mirror
I am cheering her up,i said to her she becomes a real fan for el Ahly club as she becomes red
I can't even show my sadness towards her :( I am laughing, joking, playing cards with her although i hate cards :(
Her main problem now is how to pray without using water
But the most lovely thing is what she said :
the bad thing in my illness is that u can't kiss or hug me :(
I pray to God she gets ok soon

A shiny morning ..

2008-05-09T05:22:00.001-07:00

It was a kissing party today's morning :D
He & She noticed that i slept sad for 'some' reasons ,so..
They gave me a shiny start for Friday.
He ..He is trying to concentrate in his English course ;D
that's a big job from his side,and finally succeeded to know every month's order in the year..Good job koko

She..She is getting more nosy with adults talks,noticing and starting to give comments using her 'movies background'.
She just said :

meen elly 2al en elgawaz mo2lem
no problem
:)))

He is a trouble maker :D

2008-03-24T14:46:00.000-07:00

He ll always be my baby
so i couldn't believe what his teachers said !
Sure they don't love him as i do ..but how come !
I know he is not that queit there,but i'm sure he is trapped by his freinds because of his kind heart and simple way of thinking,acting and talking..
I'm a mother after all :D

Studying Times

2008-01-10T17:04:00.000-08:00

photo copyrights to : Amber Shakir

She has a nice memory !!!

she was telling me about her memories in primary one ..
I got astonished cause i was thinking that WE are only the ones who have memories
she told me about her hard time before exams.. and her confusion in writing who & how and their meaning in questions :)

She told me that her favourite time was when studying stories :) those little ones which we were used to study hugging each other in bed :))

She told me that she was not knowing what i meant with "tense" when studying English, and said : I'm playing with tenses now as football :))

Finally when we were studying the respiratory system component, we came to the vocal cords .. she said : skip it.. I know them very well .. they are as the sound card in computer :)

she is my favourite

2007-11-11T03:47:00.000-08:00

photo copyrights to :Claude Germain

she is my favourite now !!

she can feel me..trust me.. tell me all her secrets but want the same !!

i think i'm living with her a shiny period of life and hope to continue and last forever

relax my baby i won't tell ur secrets

i'm just documenting our progress :))

Surprise

2007-10-01T06:45:00.000-07:00

photos copy rights to: photonet.com

Surprise !!

Our young relative :20 years old was just visiting us yesterday..

He made a wonderfull surprise for us.. for her actually (^_^)
He made her that clip using her old and new photos.. collected them from our relatives every where..with a unique background : the song of the lovely and crazy singer el3essaily ..TARARAM

She got crazy.. her happiness is a mix of childhood extremes and.. adult ones
I think she is still very young to feel such things..

Am i thinking wrong?

BaCk to ScHoOL

2007-09-18T03:05:00.000-07:00

Those will be my activities in the next coming months

We are ending this year the primary stage, and must be very qualified to the next, she is fine, helpfull, I mean she is not that much dependent, she can handle her own stuff well, but i have to follow,,

For the younger one KoKo, I'm trying to avoid thinking :D

It will be a battle,,

My Hero

2007-08-12T12:51:00.000-07:00

He is just my Hero.. defending me.. crying for me.. doing things for me..actually ..he is a LITTLE man.. although he is only a 7 years boy.. feeling responsible is a bless ..may be missed in grown men

She becomes Me..

2007-07-29T11:14:00.000-07:00

photo copyrights to:Leilani Exner

We are facing a problem here !!!

Sometimes she is playing my role .. in a very strange way!!!

She is 11 now.. but she turns 37 when I go away..

Last week.. I collapsed suddenly .. was very tired really.. when I woke up.. I found her wearing that black 3abaya that makes her looks like big girls.. preparing a hot drink for me.. preparing dinner for her father and brother.. tidying the house.. and finally.. making that fight with her dad ..
Typically me :)

Little Secrets

2007-05-19T15:00:00.000-07:00

I certainly have no right to speak about little secrets she told me recently,but i think someday when she read these stuff she will laugh and forgive me...

The first one she told me few days ago is really shiny :)

she thought when she was much younger that her stomach is house-shaped , which consists of too many rooms, and when she eats a carrot for example it bacame one piece in her stomach, this carrot has eyes,nose and mouth, and keep dancing and singing with other food elements :)

Another funny idea, she thought that any turtle put off its shield when it goes to sleep or takes a bath :)

The last confission was: each time she stood beside me while making a fried egg, she thought that a chicken might fall in the pan from the broken egg :)

That's all, for now....
I'm waiting for the real real secrets :)

conan edegawa..MY ENEMY...!!!

2007-05-06T08:26:00.000-07:00

This is my greatest enemy for now.. he is my kid's champ .. actually.. his inspiration in all behaviours..

This young man.. Conan.. is a detective.. who solves the most critical and complicated crimes in the famous cartoon series shown in several channels

All the time.. he is talking about criminals.. murderers.. evidances.. blood.. wounds.. liars.. plans..chasing.. and rivenge in the first place..!!

Consequently.. my kid is searching for evidances to explain his father's absence..or thinking of his sister motivations to act like that ( even coughing..!! ) .. chasing us with his small slide.. looking with deep suspect to me when talking.. and finally speaking in a very correct and clear arabic language..(the only gain)

I HATE CONAN

But i know it's his time.. i passed through this with my older girl and she is cured now.. thanx god

When i think in all those side effects that can harm my kid's mind.. the least of them is being familiar with all those words about crime and criminals.. i feel owful.. i think he is breaking all what i do

But.. sometimes i wonder.. if i just prevent him from all that his friends react with.. what would he be?

A coward in a world of active brave people..

i think i must let him watch and react.. as a nessecary anti piotec.. !!!

black n white

2007-04-21T08:33:00.000-07:00

She is arguing all the time..

Each day we start with a laugh and a kiss.. then ,we become angry for any reason

we struggle for every thing.. her clothes, her hair style, her lost time , her study, her noisy behaviours, her attitude with me, etc.....

we resemble the chess board, black n white

sometimes i lose my tember and force her, after some time.. i realise that this may cause us greatly apart

it's very hard to keep thinking about that all time..

i don't wanna lose her friendship .. and her trust..

trying

Her Glasses..and His Jumps

2007-03-23T17:24:00.000-07:00

She was so young when she first wore glasses.. even she looks very pretty in them.. but i felt her suffering cause i passed through that one day..
I hope i can help her get rid of her glasses as i did later.. that was just before my wedding.. but she is too young to go through surgeries..or deal with contact lenses..
I think she won't wait till before her wedding :)

He likes to JUMP.. when i close my eyes and think of him.. i imagine him jumping on chairs and beds
Being full of energy is a good sign.. not for my sofa indeed :) .. but i think he must playy some sport in summer to earthen his energy :)
Sometimes he immitates SPIDERMAN and climbs doors to reach the ceiling.. and of course he ends his show with a great JUMP ..
oooops..
I'm hurt mom.. my back hurts..
" spider man is strong enough'' i always say..
" of course mom.. the pain is gone.." he always replies :)

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photos are not for them .. but they are quite close :)

Some gifts ...

2007-03-21T22:27:00.000-07:00

In mother's day.. i didn't expect any presents from them.. as their father was absent :)

but .. they came home from school.. hiding somthing in their hands

they said: one..two.. three

and start singing : ya mama.. ya amma.. ya amaty

my favorite song (so3ad hosney and gahin)

they kiss me and open their hands.. to give me a handmade flowers and some hair tights

it was a great moment.. i felt broud of myself.. and happy for their thinking of me

The way they act ..!!

2007-03-15T11:46:00.000-07:00

Having a charming princess aged 11 and a little angel aged 7 is really a bless..

Making a comparison between the two of them is not fair.. cause they have different age,sex and skin colour :)

But after all i found myself making this comparison all the time due to their very different reactions

SHE.. listens.. stores information..thinks deeply.. may or may not ask about it.. SHE always know every thing n keep it to herself or.. to the suitable time

HE.. doesn't even wait to listen.. speaks all the time.. doesn't try to use his brain or memory.. when he tries once.. HE makes me fall in a hesterical laugh.. and.. when HE wants to ask about something.. HE can drive me crazy by his continous-nonstoping questions..

Here I am ...!!!!

2007-03-14T09:33:00.000-07:00

Here I am !!!!

must admit that it took me a very long time to get use of being a MOM

when I remember how I used to avoid other's children before getting married, I wonder how i got so closed to my children now.

I think there is so much to tell (really) about them, about me+ them and about me+them+ our world.

sharing, caring, fear, hope, confusion, angry ..... so many feelings must get out from deeply inside just to keep myself on track.. for them .. of course.